i love you marty!  i see your essence & looooooooove it!

i want you as my eternal kissing partner

true love is 100% intellectual

    

marty lite up on the strictness & youll see your sex urges go down

whats better the love of sex or the love of a personality

when i give you tips on how to live dont try to memorise them.  just let them go into your dimcit & they will eventuate in their proper time

now in the optative/hope mode: before we can get others to love us we need to love ourselves

remember marty you can comment by going to the top right & clicking.  the comments show up in the right margin

heres a letter i got from him today 18 4 16:  Stop me contacting me. I have already stated you are not welcome at my camp site. You are not welcome to contact me verbally,electronically, or visually. Stop means stop end of story. You clearly have problems (big problems) that I want no part of.

Stop filling my email trash can with your psycho babble. Zero communication this is the last warning.

howd you like to do a love offensive against him

in pentecostal terms what im doing w. him is called deliverance ministry.  it means getting tough w. people assailed by bad thoughts. all hes interested in is sex & fascism. what a combo.  had i not proscribed anal & penile sex hed have a much better view of me.  hes about 60!  gotta be loaded w. hiv.  were all suicidal & this ones on steroids.  this comes from our dimcit desire for death because the dimcit is smart enuf to know that matter isnt our eternal home & dimcit wants to be spirit only.  but dimcit isnt rational.  it is the dumpster into which we put the thoughts we dont want to deal w.  therefore the dimcit is irrational.  it is the consequence of not minding our biznz.  so we have dimcit warning us of dangers to our bodies.  we can reconcile the 2 above tendencies by believing that dimcit wants us to evolve to be matterless without the suffering caused by our bodies being imperfect.  it wants the body to go but not to be sick while in the process of growing into bodylessness

our dimcit desire for death comes because the dimcit is smart enuf to know that matter isnt our eternal home & wants to go to spirit.  we scorn the dimcit but shouldnt do so for life in the

body would be impossible without it.  it warns of danger.  without the body we wouldnt learn about material life.  life wouldnt have the 3D quality.  in fact prolly we wouldnt have cit because cit requires us to make mistakes so we get perspective which is what cit is. dimcit has good sense & so does the ego. but we manipulate the 2 in some way that makes them seem adversaries calling the former bad & the latter neutral

holiness comes from integrating the dim & the ego into a harmonious whole.  in the meantime we can call ourselves schizophrenic.  who knows?  maybe this integrate is what we call in cs Mind/God.  or after integrate we may have a lot more to do

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what can happen in a day!

when were not integrated we swing from pole to pole

i feel ive had enuf of marty for 1 carn & dont want any more of his stuff

im exhausted.  if anything he hates me more now than he has ever & prolly he loves me more now too

god is the only true will & actor

while i was sending him psy insites into him which i have (he uses the hackneyed term psychobabble) i felt i was accomplishing something & im sure i was.  but he put a stop to the letters.  psychobabble is recreating the human race.   so now i have no means to get to him except esp which works but isnt as satisfying as in your face.  but wait a minute.  maybe im just now aquainted enuf w. esp & if i take it au serieux itll work better than the matter stuff.  to the spiritist/gnostic like me this should be obvious

in any case he has got the feeling of having got me to do something (stop contacting him) & this could ease his fears of losing control over his life

something i demand is that any lover of mine must have 100% control of self.  anything else is sin.  lovers dont need to compromise.  they can be cats & always do their own thing.  if this upsets one or both they split.  vie e trop cour pour compromet

ive never got as far along the road to union w. someone else as i have w. marty & its because our age ratio is close to one as is our education level

im getting comfort from the idea that WE ARE NOW PERFECT. it sounds absurd but its good therapy.  it gets us away from lifes grind

this is the core idea of mbe, the very heart throb of her healing practise.  this is the whole message of cs.  it is necessary to feel it

marty thinks im off mentally.  lots of people think that abt me & the rest of la race humaine.  we all are off the mark or we wouldnt be on this planet

i know theres lots of self hatred in you.  so is there  in me.  but until the sin gets all taken out were going to hate self.  this is beneficial.  it points to our divinity

yesterday 9 5 16 i climbed the ridge to see if you were still w. us & your camp was still intact.  i was glad.  separation is one sure but not very fast way of killing love

m. if you want to put your side of the story in ill mark you as able to do that.  just interfile it or put in a series of comments.  whatever you want.  i dont censor anyone.   shorty can put up his stuff

curse cancelled.  i found my title & i imagine ill find the birth cert too

next day found the cert

i had a note in hebrew letters that told me where it was.  if you gentle reader do this put it in a language that doesnt use roman letters & keep it in a place where it is visible

now that the curse is ovuh (ny pron) m & i should have very smooth sailing

heres 1 of the 2 letters hes sent me.  the other one is above

Al, David,John,Paul or any other name you go by,

I have told you already, do not contact me with your psycho babble.

I want nothing to do with your previous rants.You are sick.  Any further communication

with result with a recontact to the sheriff, who assured me he will take care of this situation.

I will get a restraining order against you. For the hassle I will sue you for slander and libel.

Emails leave a permanent record of your state of mind.Stay away from me 10 feet at all times or a sheriff will be called. Do not contact me verbally,electronically,physically, or with any other method. cease and desist all contact.

in order to win a slander/libel (crybaby) case you have to prove money loss

do you notice he refers to psy as psychobabble.  psy is remaking the human race but he as a dipshit doesnt want the race redeemed for that would deny him his favorite pastime or so i believe.  if this allege is false & he leaves me in the lurch that is also despicable

now hes in bed w. the crookedest or most poorly trained law enforcement agy i know of & i was in the soviet union & had no trouble w. the police there

i thought the arson of house trailers had stopped 2 ys ago after i wrote the ca attorney general about it but now its started up again.  can the sheriffs dept not find the perps & put them in jail.  i swear a developer or syndicate of same are shmeering the sheriff to run everybody whos there out of there.  but theres a complication.  california owns slab city & is selling it off to individuals.  why then dont the developers buy this land before its all sold to indivs.  its because of the difficulty of getting land incorporated.  i dont know if developers can do that without the help of private land owners, most of who dont want the extra cost of property under incorporation

if marty doesnt know i love him then hes tone deaf to love

then he plays the card of my puted mental disease & the penalty cops can deal out thereby.  im a christian scientist & ca is where cs has its greatest following.  all states have cs laws that say that people depending on gods healing cant be forced into medical care

does the imperial cnty sheriffs dept want to go against the cs church & state law

im the gandhi of the world.  i can defeat any challenge

i wonder if the sheriff has checked the criminal record of marty dixon

martys writing a book praising fascism & he calls me crazy.  just last oct he was spying on the sheriffs dept counting the cars stopped by them illegally as they were coming into the slabs for the winter season

the only legal stopping is to deliver a warrant, to stop a crime as its happening, to have good reason to believe the person has done a certain crime in the past

ive reported this sheriffs dept to the state atty general 2 ys ago & ive never heard a good word abt it from locals but plenty of complaints.  i put a curse on it last yr

to the sheriff: abt 2 mo ago marty & an accomplice likely vince of poverty flat broke into & entered my van & stole various things esp anything electronic.  at least they didnt leave a mess.  martys like that.  one of his nice aspects

vince calls self deputised by your dept to keep order in his area of the flat.   once when i was hundreds of ft away from the flat & had no intent of going to the flat he got off abt 100 rounds of whatever ammo he was using.  hes what i call a real hero.  the world needs more vinces.  but please supply him w. batteries for his walkie or better yet get him one thatll reach your office in niland.  & he needs something better than a corn knife to fend off rascals like me

if he wants to talk to me hell have to suspend his ban on me talking to him.  same goes for ewriting me

he was a bad boy for hacking bio4 & coming to my van at 2 am today & brandishing a torch at my bedroom window  its a 15 min walk each way fr. & to his camp

yesterday 26 5 16 at 2 am he was outside my van brandishing this torch (flashlite).  at first i thought it was one of our arsonists at the slabs but later i reasoned it was marty whos very careful not to destroy property.  he wanted to protest the above info abt him i gave to the sheriffs dept.  the 26th was signif cuz it was on the 26th of oc 15 that i made my 1st entry abt him into my diary.  7 mos weve known each other.  7 is a number of completion.  maybe our romancing period is over & we can get down to biznz.  in love attempts that dont work the average breaking up time is 3.5 mo. so were doing ok

on 30 5 16 i ran into a neighbor of m’s called pete.  martyd been working on him saying that i was stalking marty.  to me the def of stalking is following someone secretly.  ive never done this.  the closest ive come to this is that periodically i wonder if m’s still here at slab city so from a long distance i check to see if his camp is still there.  in the last 7 mo ive gone to his camp 4 times to talk to him.  2 times hes been gone.  2 times i talked to him

neither of the above moves is stalking which is always secretive.  if i couldve found a secure way of hanging out under his bed idve done that

pete & james have told me that m is straight.  why is it that i never see him w. a woman younger than he. who am i to believe what someone tells me or what i see w. my own eyes

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m told me he quit his teaching job because the school board wanted him to learn computer manufacturing.  why then didnt he take a job w. another school system that didnt require that

the local sheriffs office should have a smart telephonist who knows what is legal & what is not so that when people call call complaining abt something that is legal the deps wont be sent out.  there are lots of crybabies who will call for the slitest thing & they need to be curtailed

Friday, June 3, 2016

why has the sheriff dont nothing about the arsonist(s) who burns down trailers at slab city & has been doing so for years & the sheriff appears to do nothing

follow my advice sheriff & youll shine like a 1st magnitude star

my theory is that hes getting paid by developers to foster the arsonist in order to make slab city an undesirable place to live so that people will abandon it so retirement condos can be built pending incorporation

the state has owned slab city for decades but is now selling off plots to the general public.  why dont the developers buy up all the property & incorporate it themselves.  there must be a law that forbids a single entity from incorporating.  they could wait till enuf plots are bought by private parties to make condos feasible & then offer the private owners an attractive price. but that may not work out.  is it possible that those who have bought lots are fronting for the developers & have agreed to sell to the developers when the time is right and at a price already set between the owners & the developers

we know that this is the planet where gov is of, for & by crooks

im my own gov

but this takes integrity which means i cant have my life compartmentalised.  i cant be schizophrenic.  ive nobody to rely on.  have to keep my powder dry.  my français wont always bail me out

dear reader dont burn up energy foolishly in leading 2 lives.  energy is all we have is all we are.  just be honest & you wont have to make up story lines.  people admire honesty for there is so little of it in la race humaine

this am 10 6 16 at the slabs we were given an earthquake at 1am. i thought it was someone shaking my veec prolly marty but i checked the net & there were a huge series of quakes in s. calif. last nite & this am.   but most of them were small ones

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we all need to negotiate rather than lay down the law for someone to obey

when were alone in a society we tend to be stubborn thinking everyone is out to get us

i wonder if m. has noticed that i have no defenses against him...thats cuz i have always been very open in my dealings w. him & w. everybody.  theres no substitute for honesty & in my hs graduation yearbook im praised as being honest

the following is a note i wrote to self & i cant understand it.  i mustve just awoken & was blurry brained: you (who?) like to try to bring people down to your level.  but it doesnt work.  theyd have to be on oxygen.  i guess it means theyd be close to death & need oxygen

in a balanced life we dont overdose on sex or any other diverting activity

getting back to shitler one of my all time favorite subjects.  he allowed life to become so painful for him that he became a necrophile & beautifully killed self w. a little help from the allies who were against him

an orgasm is a seizure. is this kind of seizure good for us.  i dont know.  but seizures after sex are well known to occur to some people. the epilepsy foundation of the us has info on this phenom

recently pete of slab city told me that i needed a deliverance by a minister because id told him info comes to me unasked for & get lots of it

this concept comes from spiritualism in which some people are gifted in getting knowledge from the spirit realm

i like the hindu concept of the akashic field which influences everybody.  allegedly this field has operated since the beginning of the current universe.  if accepted wholeheartedly it can be of a great benefit

but there is one problem w. it for me.  how do i know if im tuning into anothers dimcit (dimconscious).  this could be taken for an actual act of the person rather than sames wishes to act

in either case it shows the character of same

but pete is right that unscrupulous or not very bright persons can distort the akashic info (i think its pronounced uhkuhshic in india)

in the case of marty i can only say hes never contradicted what i think the akashic has told me

in the past ive lain awake for hrs at nite, the akashic guiding me  

hinduism the carrot...christianity the stick

m. has been keeping  out of my view completely for abt 2 wex

my pas pa once told me that he had a dream in which a very tall man was standing next to him.  immediately i thought i was the man

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in 1972 when i finished my book on whether britain should join the european common market i sent  member of parliament enoch powell a copy of it & received a letter he had bunged out on his typewriter stating that his book wasnt doing very well & he couldnt give me hope for mine

at that time the brits werent in the mood for a dry subject like THEIR FUTURE but 44 ys of humiliate & compromise has changed all that

when you have a close ally such as the us whose state dept is one w. the british foreign office you dont need to be in the european union in order to make world policy

im usually wrong abt things insofar as the majority is against me but i struck one over the fence in this case

ill bet oz esp. is cheering & will quit making pommie jokes

look for me to be on tv esp alex jones

ill have to have a shave & a hair cut

tuf govs make weak people

weak govs make tuf people

tuf people encourage weaker people to tuf up

this is how the program to make us divine works

when were tuf enuf were divine

statism is slavery

i want a sleeping partner.  no sex please im british.  just hugging & kissing & sleeping together

there are people who try to erase their painful childhood sit by writing & producing a tableau which puts them in the position that they wished to have been in as a child

why do people cry over romantic movies (good example: rosemarie w. eddy & macdonald) when they should be happy that 2 people get married.  its because of the broken ties of the people in ones past.  marriage changes things inalterably.  its a switch in alliances that cant be undone.  even if the marriage breaks up the former ties we have w. people just cant be renewed.  these former friends feel wounded beyond repair & cant extinguish the hurt

got my puter spywared for 2 ys today 15 7 16

no compliment goes unpunished for were thought to be arsekissing

the best argument against sex is its inconvenience

we can change our essence by changing our attitude

i havent taken a shower or bath since 1 apr 15 in nepal & im not planning to take one of these obscenities either